Did he love my boots more than me?
Poodle, my current boyfriend of five years, told me a few days ago that he missed my old self. He is a bit anxious about jumping into Law school, though he enjoys it very much, and is afraid that he will have to give up the things he loves in order to attain this dream. Lately he has been asking me if I still draw and write poetry like I used to love to do. I told him no and that I really don’t have the time anymore. It took me a while to see where he was going: he thinks that I gave up a lot of my hobbies after starting my career as a Funeral Director. To be completely honest, I have. I am a very talented artist but my heart was never set on becoming one.
These pictures are a few years old and I have not scanned in any newer ones, simply because there are not many. I do not draw anymore because I think I have matured a bit. Poodle thinks that I just don’t have the time anymore, which is half right. I have replaced my hobbies with better activities, such as jogging and a job. I love my job and I don’t resent the fact that I don’t have the time to sit down for a few hours and draw. I really only have time to jog early in the morning at 4:30 before school or work.
I told Poodle that he is just maturing, he won’t need to play Warcraft or video games as much because he will find a job he enjoys. He said that he missed the old me, though….He misses my gothic phase and my boots and weird t-shirts. Although I am in much better physical condition with a very nice butt, he prefers me in large boots with buckles, torn clothes, and weird hair? Doesn’t he know that I worked hard to be where I am now?! To solve his problem, I told him that I would wear the boots in bed….Problem solved!
November 6, 2007 at 11:14 pm
You do have talent as an artist. You describe how you are growing and maturing, I congratulate you on that.